I have to admit doing a lifestyle blog takes a lot of courage. Not only are you putting yourself out there to random strangers worldwide, you also are showing what your body looks like, even if it is not supermodel beautiful. It makes body issues arise, especially if they are there to begin with.
I measure 5’8″ and weigh somewhere around 185 pounds, which is a lot. I’m not thin; I have a bit of a belly along with heavy thighs. Somedays I do not care, other days I accept my body, and other days I feel upset about the way my body looks. It is especially not easy to fully accept my body as it is because I used to be thinner. Only two years ago, I was wearing a size 6 and weighed about 165 pounds. But a combination of side effects from lifelong medication and overeating due to stress, I am a bit pudgy now. Sigh.
I used to compare my body to that of the lovely Kate Upton. Like her, I have large breasts, love handles and a nonexistent butt. But since my weight gain, I wonder if we really do have similar bodies. Because if she’s still hot, then so am I !
Some say love the skin you’re in. Others say embrace body postivity. I follow some lifestyle bloggers like Noelle Downing who speak about having a positive attitude towards your body, no matter what it looks like. Her posts give me strength to post photos of myself, despite not being slim.
So, again, being a fashion/lifestyle blogger takes bravery. I guess that is why I took time off from this blog. Besides being busy with life, I also felt insecure about how I looked in my photos. Making sure I took the right angles and positioned my body well took the fun away. But I am hoping with this time around, I will be more confident and courageous enough to show my body as it is. Hey, perhaps I can talk about how to dress when you have a few extra pounds!
We shall see…