Loving The Skin I’m In

I have to admit doing a lifestyle blog takes a lot of courage. Not only are you putting yourself out there to random strangers worldwide, you also are showing what your body looks like, even if it is not supermodel beautiful. It makes body issues arise, especially if they are there to begin with.The-Dark-Pearl-Blog7.8.18

I measure 5’8″ and weigh somewhere around 185 pounds, which is a lot. I’m not thin; I have a bit of a belly along with heavy thighs. Somedays I do not care, other days I accept my body, and other days I feel upset about the way my body looks. It is especially not easy to fully accept my body as it is because I used to be thinner. Only two years ago, I was wearing a size 6 and weighed about 165 pounds. But a combination of side effects from lifelong medication and overeating due to stress, I am a bit pudgy now. Sigh.

I used to compare my body to that of the lovely Kate Upton. Like her, I have large breasts, love handles and a nonexistent butt. But since my weight gain, I wonder if we really do have similar bodies. Because if she’s still hot, then so am I !

Some say love the skin you’re in. Others say embrace body postivity. I follow some lifestyle bloggers like Noelle Downing who speak about having a positive attitude towards your body, no matter what it looks like. Her posts give me strength to post photos of myself, despite not being slim.

So, again, being a fashion/lifestyle blogger takes bravery. I guess that is why I took time off from this blog. Besides being busy with life, I also felt insecure about how I looked in my photos. Making sure I took the right angles and positioned my body well took the fun away. But I am hoping with this time around, I will be more confident and courageous enough to show my body as it is. Hey, perhaps I can talk about how to dress when you have a few extra pounds!

We shall see…

 

 

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I Finally Did It!

I did it! I finally did it!

Took me 14 days, but I finally did one of my New Years’ resolutions: exercise regularly.

After days of saying I need to exercise more following the holidays, while also stuffing my face with too many snacks, I finally set some time aside today and worked out. I did push-ups, squats and sit-ups. All 25 each, which is the most I can do with my weak body (I’m not really weak, just quite out of shape). Hopefully as time goes on, I bring that number up to 50, 75 and even 100.

I have gained a little weight this past year. Thanks to the meds I am on, my metabolism is slower. I also have been eating the wrong foods lately. This is all deja vu from when I first became overweight, back in 2010. It was then that I topped my heaviest at 210 pounds. I do not want to weight that much ever again, so I am making an effort to slim down, firm up and also get my heart rate going.

In case you are wondering, I joined Weight Watchers and then moved to Brooklyn and did tons of walking. I then slimmed down to about 165 pounds. But I still wasn’t really slim. I have – and always had – heavy thighs and a flat tire. Even though I used to squeeze into a size 6 pair of pants, I still had some flab. Imagine if I lost enough to go into a size 4?

Right now, my scale tilts at 178 pounds, which leaves me in dismay. One of the reasons why I started this blog was to keep tabs on eating healthy and living healthy. The fact that I typed this post up is a way of committing myself to living a healthier life.

Monday is a holiday, so I’ll be off from work then. I’ll exercise that day as well, and possibly Wednesday or Thursday. I want to start by exercising three days a week for a few minutes before moving it up to a half hour.

Maybe if all goes well, I’ll look super amazing this summer.